Welcome back to another segment of The Writer’s voice here on The E-book Review. With us today, is the Wattpad author behind the book Cruel Stakes High Roller.
Welcome, to The E-book review, now, I know who you are, but not many of my viewers might, can you tell us a bit about yourself?
Hi! I’m Belle and I’ve been writing since I was in high school. This started because I wasn’t very good at keeping a diary and I had trouble with basic grammar; however, I found that I had a remarkable imagination coupled with a capability to conduct an empathic reflection of myself and my surroundings. This realization allowed me to explore story writing, which allowed me to dwell on and process my personal experiences through fictional characters and settings.
What has writing this book helped you experience?
This book, Cruel Stakes High Roller, was previously titled as Some Joke I didn’t Hear. I wrote it when I was in college because I couldn’t get over the fact that some guy I met in High School was so full of himself that he spread rumors that I liked him even if I was just being friendly to him as an acquaintance, as I am friendly to most people I meet. I was terribly surprised to see him at my university, in which he feigned to even know me at all. However, as soon as I was seen hanging out with a guy (a close friend but nothing more), he was asking questions about me through our common friends. I couldn’t understand why he would still try to meddle with my affairs when he clearly painted me out to be this girl who was obsessed with him.
Since I am not confrontational in nature, I decided that I needed to write about it and try to understand his perspective, and why he would do such a thing. To make him more human, I have imagined a plausible backstory for him. This brought this book to life. Everything else that happened between the two characters are all fictionalised, especially his dramatic change of heart and how his personality was saved by the kindness of his sister and of knowing our heroine. Side note: Unfortunately, I believe this man is still a misguided individual (aka an ass) .
Who is your favorite character and why?
Ironically, the protagonist (as well as antagonist) in the book, Anthony, is still my favourite character. This is because of his personality change and how he evolved into a good man even after doing and believing those horrible things. The book is told in his point of view so we could really appreciate what he was going through and see his wonderful development.
What was the most difficult scene to write?
The most difficult scene to write would be the part where Antoinette, his sister, comes home from an argument with her boyfriend. I struggled to write about a woman who is both physically and emotionally abused, and why they choose to stay. Admittedly, I don’t think I’ve done it the justice it deserves because I was too afraid to delve into the ugliness of this situation. If I will be given the time and opportunity, I would extensively edit the book to explore these themes more and create an explanation for it as well as a practical resolution.
What one thing would you give up to become a better writer?
To become a better writer, I think I’d be able to give up my current job. Although I am thoroughly enjoying my job now as a teacher, I’d be more than willing to become a part time teacher and be a part time writer as well. Because of the stresses of daily life and work, I could only devote a small percentage of my weekends for writing, which admittedly, is not very much. If you do read my book, I would truly appreciate any feedback, comments, or votes on it. Editing it is not on my high priority list right now as I am currently working on my historical fiction novels, but if it gains enough attention and people seem to resonate with it, then I’ll find the time to make the book more enjoyable. Writing that book has helped me in that stage in my life where I was trying to find my identity and cultivating my self worth and confidence through the lens of others. Although he (the Guy where Anthony was based from) had terribly hurt me with his actions, writing this book has made me realize that I need not take it so personally as he didn’t do it because of me per se, rather, he was being this brute of a man because he was battling a turmoil inside him that only he can resolve and grow out of. I need not resent him, and although the emotion left in me is pity, I also feel that maybe all he needs is a little understanding and no matter how cliche it may sound, unconditional love.